Your emotional development seems that of a 13-year old girl. I suspect that you see the ability to form interpersonal relationships as an indication of your worth and a romantic relationship as a solution. A rewarding experience would be for you to see how much you can add to someone else's life instead of how much you can take. My advice on how you can hold your focus is to keep track of how much you contribute. Set a goal. Think carefully because not everything you think of at first will be a positive contribution.
I could be all wrong. You might just be surrounded by dweebs and need to find a better crowd to associate with.
I could be all wrong. You might just be surrounded by dweebs and need to find a better crowd to associate with.