I remember some years ago when I was young I had a serious crush, and afterwards it took like me like 3 or 4 years to get over it lol please take my advice and forget because you will eventualy forget all about it to a point where you feel very little, but you need to forget as of today and go out an live and enjoy your life and all the many different wonderful bautiful things the world has to offer, because there is a life out there and its not one designed for dwelling on believe me