Well, it's been many years for me but I remember my first kiss. I didn't have a clue as to what I was doing and made a fool out of myself. Luckily for me, the girl I kissed had plenty of experience and I'm a quick learner. Later on, I met another girl that I really liked and cared for. Our first kiss was very special! So, the first kiss I had actually helped me to realize that the second girl was really my first real kiss.
It's natural to feel like you want your first kiss back. I did too. But when I kissed that girl I really liked compared to the one that was just kind of a friend, then I got my first "real" kiss and it was great! It's not bad that you wish it had been different. Not at all. When you kiss that special person, that will be your kiss that you will always remember. I do, and still remember her name. Perfectly normal as you grow up and you'll forget the one that wasn't so great!