So, what is your question? It's hard to point you in the right direction on how you can fix things if we don't have any idea what, if anything, you want to change. Also, it would be helpful to know how old you are (i.e., going through puberty, or menopause, or having a mid-life crisis, you get the idea).
Generally speaking, it sounds like you are depressed. You should visit your doctor to rule out any medical issues. If you are severely depressed where it's affecting your quality of life, tell your doctor that. There are several wonderful medications that can help depression, but no one can help until you reach out.