No you are NOT a nut job! There are a few things I am concerned about here though..... First of all after two years of depression I do not think it is postpartum anymore. You may have a different kind of depression. Second of all, if you are still on pills after the postpartum ones two years ago they may not be working anymore or as well. Hopefully you have a good doctor that monitors that. Thirdly, LOTS of things could be contributing to your depression: Spats with the baby's father, relationship problems, finances, everyday stress, school or careers, an illness, car troubles, etc. Or you could be depressed because your "old" life is no longer available because you have to be grown up now. Or it could be you are so wrapped up in your child that you forget to take time for yourself (or feel guilty if you do) and you just need a night out. I hope you have some support at home. If you are under the care of a doctor I hope they are taking good care of you. If not, you have the right to change doctors. But no, NO, you are NOT a nut job. Please get that out of your head. Be good to yourself and be good to your child. Seek help if you are still very depressed. Remember this..... If you don't take care of yourself, how are you suppose to take care of another?
