I am literally desperate to get girlfriend, I want to feel what love is like and it's hard for me to find someone because I have panic disorder. The option is commiting suicide I guess?

You've probably been told this thousands of times, but suicide is not the answer. It really isn't.

There's bound to be somebody out there for you, and the moment you cross paths, you'll know it was love at first sight. Don't give up, no matter how impossible situations may be.

You know how they say a picture is worth a thousand words? I agree...

Committing suicide is never the answer to anything. That kind of love isn't for everyone. But just cause if it isn't meant for you it doesn't mean you aren't loved. You are loved by your friends and family. There is no need to commit suicide just cause you can't find that kinda love right now. Though you are loved for just being who you are.

I just wanted to share with you that I have GAD (Generalised Anxiety Disorder), so I will have many of the same symptoms as you. You don't need to commit suicide! Your panic disorder does not define you, and the right lady for you will realise that. I've been going out with my boyfriend for almost a year and a half and he doesn't care that I have anxiety - in fact, he takes care of me when I'm feeling really bad. Even if you don't meet someone straight away, as Izzy said you have to remember that your friends and family must love and accept you for who you are, and make sure you turn to them for support.

You didn't say what country you are from, but if you would like to talk about your suicidal feelings with a non-judgemental listener, you could call the Samaritans if you're in the UK, or the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline if you are in the US. If you need any numbers or contact details for any other lifelines in different countries, please comment on my answer and I'll do my best to help. The Samaritans and Lifeline's websites are below:

http://www.samaritans.org/

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

Good luck - and remember:

Hi Minia! I'm going yo try and give you the benefit of my experience on all sides of your question. First off,  desperate to find a girlfriend....Well, I'm much older than you I'm sure, and I've had a couple of relationships, but until I met Rooster, I never knew what "LOVE" was. I thought I did, but the love we share is like nothing I've ever known. It took me many years to find this, be patient, it will happen for you when you least expect it. Second, your panic disorder.....Yes I know that panic attacks can be crippling, if you have not seen a doctor for this, please do as there are medications that can help this. If you have, and are on medication, please tell your doctor that it's not working. Third and most importantly....suicide. It's very difficult for the people left behind, those people are left wondering for the rest of their lives "why" questioning if they did something or didn't do something to contribute to their loved ones actions. That being said, you obviously are seeking help, just by asking your question, we as strangers can give you the benefit of our experiences but what you should do is confide in a close friend or relative, or even your doctor if you're not comfortable with anyone else. Your doctor will also be able to help you in other ways. Good luck to you, seek out some help, it will get better for you! :)