I met this girl online, 3 years ago and married her even tho she is 5 years older than me and already have 1 child and I still go ahead and end up marrying her and also have 1 child with her. We live in different continues, I live in the UK with my mom, dad, brother and sister and she lives in USA with her uncle and daughters. The reason we live in different countries because 1st, we have different religions and my mom and dad will never accept her, even if they know that I am married, they will kick me out from my house and never going to talk to me again and they are not well enough to take this. 2nd we both don’t make enough money to bring her here or she bring me there.
And, we have been married for almost 3 years and in these three years she come to UK and visit me, 1st when we get married, 2nd She come with my step daughter and this is the 3rd time with my daughter. Whenever she come visit me we book a hotel and she and my daughter they are still here in the UK, 17 Jul 2017.
Last year, I had my daughter with her and she is 1 year old and this is the first time I met her and everything seems to be fine, I get along with her just fine but I think something is wrong with me and this is never happened in this 3 years. This here I just don’t want to stay with her or my daughter, I just want to go my home and find the reason to go to my home and when I am my home, I start missing them… The reason I don’t wanna stay home with her because she treated me bad, and we cannot go anywhere she always get mad so quickly and talk to me rudely.
I don’t know what to do here, I am just counting days for her to go so I can carry on with my life but at the same time I am sad to let her go and my daughter. I have a depression so I think maybe its this? Because I am not feeling hungry.. I dont know what to do. I cant focus on my work either. Please someone help.