Me and my bf recently broke up, and half the time I'm numb but then the other half I'm crying. Why?

Love and Life.

It is part of the grieving process. When you first experience a loss whether it be through a death OR a separation your bodies first defense is to numb itself to handle the initial pain. But as time goes on (usually with in a couple weeks) that numbness begins to wear off and you begin to feel the pain of the loss. What I want you to do is NOT fight it. Feel the pain as it comes so you can work through it. Remember the pain will not last forever but unfortunately you have to go THROUGH it in order to get through it. You can not go over it, under it, or around it.... You have to go through it. I am so sorry for your loss and that you are going through this pain. But fighting the pain will only prolong the pain.

Because it takes time to heal your heart and body after these things. Break-ups are never easy and can be quite painful. Find something else to keep you busy for a while and let yourself heal.  Right now your heart is doing flip flops and only time can heal that. Take up a hobby for a while to keep distracted......like welding or something. You're young and will heal and move on with your life.

Your go numb to protect yourself from the sadness. When you feel the sadness, let it out. Cry until you can't cry anymore. Then eat some ice cream. I don't know why, but ice cream always helps.

After the sadness comes the anger. Let that out as well. Honestly, how dare he hurt you like that. You are good person who deserves better. And then it will click, that it is true, you deserve better. AND you are now free to go find better. And that is when living well becomes the best revenge. You go out and live your life and be happy doing it. It will take some time, but you will get there and be better for it.

With drawl simptons.

that is normal. Its part of a relation ship. You'll be alright.  It might be cause you miss your bf and your letting your emotions out.

Your mind and body are in shock. It's never easy to lose someone. To separate and let go. Our mind's mechanism is not good at letting go and wash up the memories.the more emotions attached the heavier aftermath will be. It's a process. The numbness caused by an overloaded shock and broken emotions. The nerves are impressed and embraced the impact. As the result you feel the numbness in your muscles, similar examples; shaking, breathing disorders, eating disorder,dizziness, even nausea. And crying is way to release all the stored emotions at once. You might not want to block your tears, crying at such conditions makes you feel lighter and better. You have to be strong, get through it and make your mind busy as much as you can with other activities and hanging with people that are closer to you.

The time is the main key. Sorry that you have to go through it. Hope you feel better soon.