Lately I've been very tempted to commit suicide. Just the thought of dying makes me very happy. I've been feeling like this almost every day. What is wrong with me?
There is nothing wrong you!
Suicidal thoughts are far more common than what most people expect them to be.
These thoughts are most commonly experienced through adolescence, a time of uncertainty in everyone's life, where peer pressure and fear not being accepted plays a key role in creating anxiety and fear.
The good news is that these thoughts eventually fade out in the great majority of all cases, as you begin to know how to put things into perspective and become more confident.
If you feel like you're struggling to control your feelings, then you should definitely see a professional who is trained to help you identify what's causing you to think this way and how to tackle it with therapy and/or medication.
Talking to your close family and/or friends is also known to be very helpful as it can help you realise how other people also struggle with life's challenges.
Most importantly, speaking to people helps you learn how others deal with their own struggles (maybe they even face the same struggle as you do). Take mental notes and apply their wisdom to your own reality.
So having suicidal thoughts does not mean there is something wrong with you, but it is now time for you to seize control of the situation and being looking forward to the future.
Okay let's get into your problem nicely! Why do you think of dying? Many reasons, people don't like you, you feel alone, life is of no use, you've got no money, you are bothered by people or different stresses or tensions, you hate yourself, you don't wanna live! So those were the reasons for why you wanna die! You know past some days even I cried lots and just felt to die and was done with life and felt that if I die at least I will be away from this cruel world BUT then I thought for all those people for whom I'm doing this what's this gonna prove to them? That I was a coward who just got scared with a pinch of problems and saw nothing except killing myself! Then I thought if all those dreams I have all those beautiful imaginations I had made for myself then I thoughts whats my death gonna give me and then then it gave me nothing and then so much as they would have now got a topic to gossip about me and for those people for whom I was gonna kill myself they wouldn't feel sad or cry on my death would they? No they wouldn't! And so now I thought doesn't matter if I have to face a 1000 problems in childhood, I'm sure when I grow, life will become good! This is childhood just enjoy it, and such problems come in life face them nicely and patiently and not let the stress, pain eat your brain so that you can't think anything! So what ever the reasons for your thinking suicide is, just think and whatever it is, set out to prove the truth of you and show all who you really are, I'm sure that will give you more happiness than thinking of committing suicide gives.
You know I just found an app on Facebook and that this would tell you the secret meaning of your name and you know what the meaning of mine is? It's "Revolutionary"!
So you see how awesome life is! :)