Well, it certainly isn't "abnormal". Feelings aren't right or wrong .... They just are. I hope you will come to terms with it as time goes on for your own peace of mind. Try to be open with your dad and tell him you're not ready yet, but don't close the door forever.
Wishing you the best.
There is no normal when it comes to feelings and family. I do suggest you talk to your mom about your feelings and tell her why you feel that way. If it is because you feel your father abandoned you, I understand. I didn't see much of my dad growing up. I really didn't care if I saw him or not.
I will say as I got older and got to learn more of the situation I wasn't privy to as a kid, I became more understanding and talked to him about how everything went down. I learned to forgive and move on.
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