I've died quite a bit in my dreams and it's very nerve and mood wracking. However, it helped me come to terms with death itself and helped me feel comfortable with the natural ending of things.
Why do you want to suicide?
I've had a lot of time to think, and all I think about is suicide.. I actually had a dream that I killed myself. I woke up crying but I was pissed because I was still alive. Help me... Please?
If your thoughts are this bad, you need to seek Professional help here as this is serious especially when you wake feeling sorry that youre still alive. I can help you if it wasn't this bad so get the help you need as soon as you can. Good luck
Suicide is a permanent end to a temporary problem. I've been there in your shoes and the feeling of hopelessness is hard to overcome.
However, with the right help, you can feel better about yourself. If you think outside of the problems you're facing now, have you thought about how your mom / dad / siblings / aunts / friends would feel if you were no longer around? You can say, "oh, they won't even notice I'm not here", but is that really true?
Most of the people dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts are so enmeshed in what they are facing, they cannot think beyond that. When I was 16, I was where you were. I didn't know it was a crime in Texas to try to commit suicide so the state assigned a counselor to me and family counseling was ordered. I would have left behind a 10 year old brother that worshipped the ground I walked on. What would he do without me around? My actions would deeply affect him the rest of his life.
Contact the National Suicide hotline. They can talk to you and get you the help that you need. Remember, suicide is not the answer. www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org / 800-273-8255. You have people that care what happens to you. Reach out. You won't regret it.
You need to seek help.