Well, you have panic attacks cause Harry Styles doesn't know you exist - that is abnormal. Now if you got excited cause he comes on TV and had a panic attack that wouldn't be so bad. I know you have had lot of sadness and lot of problems. I hope you can talk to someone who you can confide in to help you cause I think you need help, and please take no offence. I really feel bad for you 'cause you're too young to have these problems ..You got your whole life ahead of you,.