I kissed someone, but I didn't like it. I thought he was my friend. It was my first, and I was so afraid that no one else would ever like me. He started pushing too far, groping me even though I said that I had no experience. I started to lead him on, just so we could get back to the party and I could find my friends. Was that wrong? I feel guilty, but I also feel disgusted. Am I justified in this?