I wish I stayed a virgin , do you blame me? Marriage was the worst experience for me, pure torture.

In hang gliding circles there's a saying that it's better to be sitting patiently on the hill, wishing you were flying, than to be flying and wishing you were sitting on the hill.

Marriage is very much like that. A good marriage is wonderful, a bad one is soul-destroying. I'm sorry you had a bad experience.

Youre not to blame here at all. We are all Humans so we are prone to mistakes and God knows we all have made a lot or will in our lifetimes. The biggest mistake or wrong here would be if you didn't learn from this venture to never repeat the same thing again. This is what happens when we listen to our heart first and foremost beyond our gut feeling when it tries to tell us something is very wrong. The good thing here is you are out so now pick up the pieces and begin to move on and don't look back nor dwell on the past too long and I wish you all the best in your future endeavors but do NOT blame yourself here.  Good luck

Why would we blame you.  We have no idea of your circumstances.

I would be more comfortable with your mindset if you had said you wished you had remained single rather than a virgin.

While I agree that being single and a virgin is as desirable as it  might be hard to accomplish, having stayed a virgin is not the usual response.

Didge's comment:  "A good marriage is wonderful, a bad one is soul-destroying" is pretty accurate.

Arthur Wright's comment points out that you can recover effectively from such an experience.

Counseling would most likely help you immensely.

Best of Luck and take care....

don't be hard on yourself.

Join the club, but don't let it eat you up inside like it's doing to me.