It is not an ideal situation.
It's surely an automatic emotion respond to someone who representing a strong identity, organized life,fame and intelligence through what he's doing. The people who perform their job for the society and carrying a particular fame, usually face such examples! There going to be another hundred people like you who feel such for him. It called crush i assume. Personally, i don't consider it as an appropriate behavior.
100 % is clear that you won't have a place in his life. I'd like to open up the case for you.
1.He's in another country anyway! So a harder chance.
2.You never met him, never spoke to him and never been into his life. You don't know anything about his personal behaviors, how he reacts, his lifestyle, his favorites, his choices, and his preferences. And i am totally sure you can't even carry one second in his fame world. You think it's easy but it's not. It takes alot of aspects to take for someone who make himself famous in a particular topic. It's a different world than a simple society life. Because you're part of society with this differences that you living your life for the society itself. So simply there's nothing mutual in your worlds.
If it's not a fun question! Then you need to wake up and be realistic before you drown into a world which don't exist. However, it might be phase that it'll pass. So enjoy your crushing time!
Good Luck.
