Where to go when you have no mother or woman in your life to talk you where you do not have to pay? I always remain the emotional rock in my endeavors but have no one to talk to for myself. I always need be supporting and positive to pump up others

Try your Church or local Social Services for counseling services available to you. I would gladly help you if I lived closer to you as this is what my education and experience is in with over 30+ years experience but doubt you live anywhere near central Florida